am i the only one who lacks motivation?
i seem to have a head that is full of ideas, hopes and dreams but the actual drive to reach out and grab any of them is sorely lacking.
growing up i was never a team player, never strived to be top of the class, always preferring to bumble about unnoticed with a small group of friends that i loved with all my heart.
nothing has changed. i am still that girl .
this year i am faced with the chance to grab not one but two potentially amazing opportunities. both require me and really only me to use my old noggin and push them forward and make them happen. if i do it will not only make one of my all time hopes and dreams that i NEVER thought would actually happen, happen, but will also generate income and awareness of our small animal rescue efforts.
but here i sit on the third day of this year pondering.
i am almost certain, or have done a very good job of talking to my inner self sternly and convincing myself, that i have the ability to do both..
i certainly want to do both
and yet the actual doing seems to be dancing on the boundary of my reach.
one task is very physical and certainly does not need doing right now whilst i am sleep deprived from poorly dog nursing, but the other involves me sitting very much on my backside.
i think a little bit of me is so excited about the second idea that i am almost to scared to put it out there for anyone to see in case they look at me as if i am loopy.
some very close pals who would be involved in the project know the outline idea and feedback was good so i should just get on with it..
in fact just writing it all down here has given me a tiny jolt of determination
off i go with a small but jolly useful pocket full of motivation...