today i have been trapped indoors attempting to make things for the country living fair..
i am very blessed to have a chap who takes over when needed leaving me indoors having hissy fits over wire bird legs and pondering just how to attach reindeer antlers..
as i sit at the end of this day feeling tense, irritable, like a total failure, it has dawned on me that i am not a person that can be kept indoors for a whole day.
i become a loon, a caged animal, a grouchy old bag..
i need fresh air, wind, rain, mud, animal faces, horses to sniff...
so today's quest from #bedn was to list ten things
below lies a list of ten things that have driven me stir crazy loopy today
brace yourselves for it sure is ugly...
#1 wire and having to bend and shape it in order to get six fricking papier mache birds to stand. i have no idea why i have found this so tricky today for i have done it easily so many times before?
and i stabbed myself with aforementioned wire and now have a bruised thumb.
#2 bags of crispy indian snack thingies and the fact that they are so so tiny. i have had to eat them with a soup spoon so that i could shovel enough in to declare them as lunch.
#3 the need to pee. the need to eat. both of these steal my time and make me leave the one warm room in this house.
#4 cat hair. on everything including stock. wretched.
#5 glue and the fact that i have it in my eyebrows. don't ask..
#6 lack of a butler/maid/skivvy that appears unasked and brings me decent food rather than the annoying dried indian snacks *see #2*
#7 the fact i have to make supper. again.
#8 the fact i have a hound that will steal forbidden food when i am in the same room. looking directly at him. he has no shame
#9 attaching fox arms to foxes whilst trying to eat supper, talk to my chap, stroke the dogs and generally believe i am a normal human being and not the crazy *been in the same clothes for 24hr* woman i seem to have become
#10 above all this is the massive annoyance that i am feeling all of this because of a fair. i vowed never to do this again. never to put myself under pressure to make as i know that is when sure as sure can be i will stop being able to make anything. anything at all, which is why i have been arsing around with papier mache and wire and antlers and foxes when i should be making ruddy pin cushions...
list done. rant over. time for ice cream :)